谁能用英语帮我翻译一段文字.万分感激.都是我自己的心理话!
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不是我不想,有时候真的不能控制自己.痛苦至极..!说到大学,除了自己的前途就是她了,想到她我却只能远远看着,甚至有别人在自己的眼前把她夺走,自己却除了几滴不值钱的眼泪就一无所有的感觉.想说:对不起.呵…这时的对不起又有什么价值..无语.虽然我会努力,但是与现实还是会有差距的,这点我很明白,人都是独一无二的,每个人都有自己的弱点,而我的弱点就是想的往往不能付出实践.听了她很多话,感觉确实比以前好多了.但到了一种程度,我却突然变的麻木了.谁都不想这样.但是总会有好有坏.虽然不甘心.但是其他的东西给我的是难以忍受的痛苦,压抑了我的心.关于我自己不想多说什么了.担心的是她,怕我在害她.但是我真的真的放不下.真的真的舍不得.外表表现的很好,心却伤的很难坚持继续跳动了,也许这就是所谓的伪装.我做的还不错,呵呵.抱着她,眼泪流出来了,嘴角还要保持微笑.最重要的是坚强,就算自己受不了了.也不能让心爱的人失去安全感,因为我已经受了很重的伤了,在也承受不住失去她的痛苦了.不想失去知觉.现在想想,一切的发生,只是时间问题了.我“努力”改变着----也许我只能陪她走这么远.
参考答案:It is not that I do not think , time can not be really controled by oneself. Pain to very. .!Say university , is her except own future, think that I can only far look at her , before even have others in self seize her to go, self except few drops not valuable tear is penniless feeling. Want to say: Sorry. He . . . the sorry of now what worths. .Have no language. Though, I can try hard , but have gap comparing with reality or meeting, as this counts me to understand very much that person is unique , everybody has own weakness , my weakness is think of can not often pay out practice. Have heard her many words, feeling definite is more a lot of than the former. But have gone to a kind of degree, I suddenly change is numb. Nobody thinks that is so. But it is bad to will always have. Though, it is unwilling. But what other things give me is the pain that is hard to bear , have contained my heart. About my self, do not want to say what. Those that worry are her , fear that I am harming her. But I really put to be no less than. Grudge really really. Exterior shows very well, heart wound is nearly impossible to insist to have pulsated continuously, perhaps, this is so called disguise. I do is not bad, He He. Hold her, tear has flowed , corners of the mouth still maintain smile. What is most important is that it is strong , has can't stand any longer by oneself. Can not also let beloved one lose safe sense, because I have undergone very heavy wound , when also bearing not live to lose her pain. Do not want to lose consciousness. Think now, everything occur, it is time problem only. " I try hard " change - - - - perhaps I can only accompany her to go is so far.